Jewish Journal

When Things Break

by Michelle Azar

July 12, 2014 | 12:48 pm

Things seem to break when you come back from a big trip. This hypothesis does not come from any exhaustive research, but in my short time on this planet I have found it to be true.

We returned from our jam packed, super fun, long overdue trip to Israel, and I quickly smashed my cell phone. Simple, I thought. I was distracted, longing for my friends and my beach time and the country I feel most free in. But now, only two weeks later, our water filter broke, our plumbing semi exploded, and this morning, before I could finish this blog entry, our fridge seems to have gone on hiatus.

Israel too is suffering some breakdowns. People far wiser than I can speak to its reasons, but I feel the breakage. I am at a loss. I know the appliances will take some time and money, and lots more money probably, to fix, but the fix-it path towards the MidEast's current breaking is unclear. I listen to the news with confused helplessness.

All I can do is remain in love, but the realistic kind of love that comes from being in a long, committed relationship. I can see the object of my love clearly in all its beauty and ugliness. I sit in quiet prayer for this love, in hope and and sorrow and curiosity  for this place which deeply roots me to myself, to my family history, and I try to know that the path towards togetherness is soon.

In peace,

I would be honored to see as many of you as I can next week  at U STUDIO 5410 Wilshire Blvd.
I will be guest teaching  MONDAY 7/15 @ 5:30 PM and TUESDAY 7/16 10:30 AM

in addition to our Summer schedule at Temple Emanuel of Beverly HIlls
MONDAYS 9:00 am
TUESDAYS 6:30 pm

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Michelle fell in love with the practice of Ashtanga Yoga, the system of Hatha Yoga taught by Sri K. Pattabhi Jois, some 13 years ago while doing a play in San Francisco. Having...

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