November 7, 2011
Day 1 of the Five Day Cleanse: irritable, aggravated, short-tempered
Man this cleanse sucks. I’m reconsidering my pledge to write about it daily because right now I don’t have much to say about it except how awful everything tastes. I’ve also had a horrible headache all day from caffeine withdrawal so this may be tainting my outlook right now.
The whole cleanse is based on ayurvedic priniciples which is deeply connected to the yogic tradition and is meant to detoxify the body. My roommate and boyfriend are doing it with me, which is nice but also has made for a hostile atmosphere as I feel everyone a bit short tempered already.
Aloe vera juice is disgusting but we all forced ourselves to drink it first thing this morning. Breakfast was a bunch of green veggies juiced together with a little carrot and ginger for flavor. It was gross but somehow I drank it all down. I felt bad because the one I got for Mr. DB had beets in it and basically tasted like dirt with a little ginger. But nonetheless, I made him his lunchtime Ultimate Meal smoothie, put it in a thermos and sent him on his way to continue his cleanse whilst at work.
The thing I love most about yoga is that it teaches you to breathe deeply and remain calm despite whatever challenges you are confronted with, be it physical or mental or emotional. In class, this means that when my thigh is burning and I desperately want to come out of Warrior 2, I focus on breathing and allow the sensation to continue without reacting it which ultimately makes me physically stronger and also mentally stronger.
At the very least, I’m hoping to strengthen myself in the same way by following this cleanse. It has very real consequences for a relationship. Last night, I was feeling super stressed, exhausted from a lack of sleep and yoga teacher training that began at 9 in the morning, and already irritable from beginning the process of weaning myself off of caffeine. I was on the phone with my boyfriend and he hadn’t yet done something he promised me he was going to do that day and this just became the last straw for me on a bad day. I started to feel myself wanting to take it out on him. My cell service was cutting in and out and soon this too became his fault along with the rain and the traffic and finally I lost my cool. Luckily my phone cut out and he didn’t hear my voice change into that tone when I said well, just forget it, I can’t come over now anyway. This apparently is the only reason to have AT&T cell service.
Anyway, I got home, complained to a friend about my day who helped me see what a brat I was being. I called Mr. DB back and much to my relief he had done what he had said he would. I regained my composure, drove over to his place, and we had a nice little dinner.
The point is, most of the time, yoga has helped me develop the tools to be non-reactive in situations like that. I’m hoping that this week’s cleanse will help me go further in my ability to remain calm and not let my emotions get the better of me the way they did last night as I learn to strengthen my willpower. Now, I’m off to make my ultimate meal smoothie for dinner and drink detox tea. Hopefully I can do it without thinking about how hungry, annoyed, and grossed out I am…