October 19, 2006
Single, 60, and invisible no more
My experience is that if you are over 60, single and a woman you're somewhat invisible. Unfortunately, we live in a youth-oriented society where emphasis is placed on the young. So I started to make mental notes comparing similarities or differences between the under-60 singles and the over-60 singles.
I'm one of the over 60 "frontier generation" singles, someone who didn't want to stay in a broken marriage. Before I pursued my new career -- acting -- I was a domestic engineer and political activist; I'm better educated than my parents' generation, youthful, independent, in good health, vivacious and financially in a good place. I have a busy and somewhat active life with a small circle of friends. I have some baggage -- I'm divorced, have married children who don't live near me, and grandkids I don't see very often unless I get on a plane. My youngest son, daughter-in-law and two darling grandchildren will be going to Uganda for two years, leaving early next year, so there is travel in my future. I see myself as somewhat of a risk-taker and adventurous, but I did not know what was awaiting me when I ventured out into the singles world after a long-term marriage, having been taken care of for many years.
All age groups seem to want the same thing: a soulmate, a soft shoulder to lean on occasionally, companionship for dinner in or out, theater, movies, and travel. I still enjoy cooking (and I'm good at it). I'm not too old for cuddling and hugging, and I happen to enjoy it.
I kept hearing about people meeting and connecting online, so I signed up. Well, my experience was like a bad dream, perhaps even a nightmare. Most men live in fantasyland and haven't looked in the mirror enough to realize they are no longer 30-something. They all seem to be looking for younger women and a lost youth. My question: If these divorced men think they are God's gift to the world, why are they single now? One man I spoke to said music was his whole life, and he was looking for someone with the exact same interest and level of knowledge. I appreciate classical music, but that wasn't good enough. He also had been married four times. Then there was a pharmacist who took me to lunch; he had had four marriages, although he didn't go into any details -- he didn't want to talk about it. Then there was a widower who'd had a long-term, happy marriage and now wanted to just go out to have fun. Nothing wrong with that. He took me to dinner, a movie and then kept hinting about coming back to my place. Never happened. We couldn't go back to his place, even if I'd wanted to, because his daughter and family had moved in with him as his caretakers. He'd fallen a few times in his house. We agreed to stay in touch. I haven't been sitting by the phone waiting.
A date took me to the movies at the Los Angeles County Museum of Art and treated me to matzah ball soup at Canter's. I arranged to meet him in Santa Monica, because he doesn't like to drive at night. After the movie, we got back about midnight to where my car was parked, when he started to insist I come up to his place for soy ice-cream. Didn't happen.
Then I met a friendly, interesting lawyer. We enjoyed walking, hiking and talking; occasionally he would take me to lunch. He would eat his lunch and half of my lunch. One evening I invited him to a theater event. He said he was going out of town. That evening he showed up at the event with another woman. After reading many profiles, I got the impression that many men -- and possibly women -- are still looking for their Prince/Princess Charming and want to be swept off their feet. Love at first sight. Realistically, I'm not sure it's going to happen, since relationships consist of someone else's mishegoss. I came to realize that I needed to find a nice person with a good heart and to look beneath the surface. Massage the friendship, allow it to grow and develop. I think all of us need to compromise.
I now have an ongoing friendship. The Internet didn't bring us together. It was an interesting first meeting at Starbucks; he did a reading chart based on my handwriting. He was correct about many things. It certainly caught my attention. He calls me almost daily. We e-mail, we date occasionally, share a lot about our lives and thoughts. He travels a good deal -- it's part of his job. Recently, his daughter went off to college, so now he's home alone with his dog. He's a few years younger than me, but so what. What can I say but the beat goes on. He's a nice person with a good heart.
Esther W. Hersh is an actress who lives in Los Angeles.