September 29, 2009
The good old days
I had a good holiday. By good I mean exhausting and by exhausting I mean that I cannot believe the New Year has begun and already there is so much going on.
This past year was an interesting one for me and I really spent a lot of time over the holidays reflecting on all the different aspects of my life.
At the end of the day I know my life is blessed and I am grateful to have a wonderful son and family, fantastic friends and a Temple that I am inspired and embraced by.
Even though I am happy and healthy I can’t help but wonder if this is it. Am I currently living in what will one day be the “good old days”?
I’m not feeling sorry for myself. I’m not bitter or angry or unsatisfied. I am aware of the fact that I have a great life and I appreciate it, but even with all my blessings, is it okay if I want more?
I want to have peace in my life. I want to be heard. I want to be in love. I want my son to be safe and happy and not tempted by bad things that are tempting when you are a teenager.
I seek the courage to connect to people I have let go of and I seek the strength to walk away from those who are ultimately not good for me.
I pray I will not be so scared that I stop trying. I pray I will not be so nervous that I lose my truth. I pray I will not be so tired that I can’t pay attention.
I hope we all have a great year. I hope that people will be kind. I hope prayers are answered. I hope blessings are bestowed. I hope Mike Fleiss calls.
Regardless of what your beliefs are, keep them close. Whether you are experiencing joy and laughter or tears and sorrow, appreciate what you have, aspire for more and keep the faith.