February 13, 2013
Rest in Peace Robert Angel
It is the anniversary of my father passing away. It has been many years but I still can’t believe he is gone. I miss him everyday and feel the loss in ways that hurt deep in my heart. He was a great father and while our relationship had ups and downs, he was my hero and always loved and protected me.
I see a lot of my Dad in my son. They have many things in common and share a lot of the same tastes and mannerisms, so it is a blessing that I get to see glimpses of my Dad in my boy. They had a very close relationship when my son was young and it hurts that my Dad was taken away so quickly.
I have many memories of my Dad with my son and I cherish them, as does my baby. I have pictures of my Dad throughout my house and on rare occasions when I am feeling strong, I watch old home movies and listen to his voice. I close my eyes and get wrapped up in his laugh. He was wonderful.
I am going to go to Temple this morning and say a prayer for my Dad, light a candle in his memory, and take my son out for dinner so we can talk about Grandpa Bob and keep his memory alive. I want my son to know all about his Grandpa and tonight will be a lovely moment for us to share. They say time heals all wounds, but I don't think that is true. I miss my Dad more now than ever before. I want him to see my son become a man. I want him to see me in love with a wonderful Englishman. I want him to share in my successes. I want him back. I want my Father here with us.
Rest in Peace Robert Angel. You are loved and missed. Thank you for watching over me and guiding me in the right direction. I think of you daily, speak of you constantly, and see all the very best parts of you in your Grandson. You are my guardian angel and I am keeping the faith.