Rest in Peace Robert Angel

It is the anniversary of my father passing away.  It has been many years but I still can’t believe he is gone.  I miss him everyday and feel the loss in ways that hurt deep in my heart.  He was a great father and while our relationship had ups and downs, he was my hero and always loved and protected me.

I see a lot of my Dad in my son.  They have many things in common and share a lot of the same tastes and mannerisms, so it is a blessing that I get to see glimpses of my Dad in my boy.  They had a very close relationship when my son was young and it hurts that my Dad was taken away so quickly.

I have many memories of my Dad with my son and I cherish them, as does my baby.  I have pictures of my Dad throughout my house and on rare occasions when I am feeling strong, I watch old home movies and listen to his voice. I close my eyes and get wrapped up in his laugh.  He was wonderful.

I am going to go to Temple this morning and say a prayer for my Dad, light a candle in his memory, and take my son out for dinner so we can talk about Grandpa Bob and keep his memory alive.  I want my son to know all about his Grandpa and tonight will be a lovely moment for us to share. They say time heals all wounds, but I don't think that is true.  I miss my Dad more now than ever before.  I want him to see my son become a man.  I want him to see me in love with a wonderful Englishman.  I want him to share in my successes.  I want him back.  I want my Father here with us.

Rest in Peace Robert Angel.  You are loved and missed.  Thank you for watching over me and guiding me in the right direction. I think of you daily, speak of you constantly, and see all the very best parts of you in your Grandson.  You are my guardian angel and I am keeping the faith.