December 31, 2012
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
It has been a long year and as I look back on it, there is laughter and tears. I am looking forward to 2013 with hope. I believe this is going to be a year of transition in terms of my work, adjustment in terms of my being a mother, and tranquility in terms of my relationship.
My work is changing because the blogs have taken on a life of their own. There are exciting things happening for me and while I cannot talk about them just yet, it is going to be terrific and I cannot wait for the ride to start, and to take you all on it with me.
The next year will mark my son becoming a senior, applying to college, and placing one foot firmly out of my door as he gets ready to jump into his adult life. I am excited for him but heartbroken for me. I don't know how to live my life without him with me everyday.
It has been him and me for so long that I feel like each breath I take is for both of us. Just the thought of him going away to university makes my chest hurt. Each time he takes the car my eye twitches. I love this boy and the adjustments will be hard but joyous.
I am in love. True authentic, exciting, painful, mysterious, scary, educational, confusing, heart soaring love. I have not been here for as long as I can remember, and in a lot of ways, not sure I have even ever been here before. It is a wonderful place to be.
My Englishman brings me peace and allows me to live my life with a level of tranquility that is felt by both my son and me. His children make me a better woman, his love for my child makes me a better mother, and his affection for me makes me a better human being.
As wonderful as the year has been, I am ready for it to end. I am ready for a new beginning. A clean canvas that will allow me to paint in bold colors and wide strokes. This blog is one of my greatest blessings and for that I thank all of you for reading.
You come here everyday to hear my voice and it matters to me. You matter to me. I hope you all have a happy and healthy new year that is full of peace, love, health, happiness, joy, and laughter. Be kind to yourselves and be kind to each other.
Happy New Year to you all from London.
Be happy, be safe, and keep the faith.
I am ringing in the new year in London with my son, the Englishman, his daughters, and entire family.