January 8, 2010
When I was asked to write a Singles Blog for the website of The Jewish Journal of Greater Los Angeles I was flattered and excited. I was frustrated with my dating life at this stage of my life and thought it would be an interesting experiment that would take me out of my comfort zone and open new doors.
I have a tremendous respect for the paper, the people who work there and the Jewish community. I have stood by my decision to date only Jewish men and have always managed to put myself out there in an honest and open manner. My goal has been to share and at the same time keep the faith and not lose my way.
This week has been eye opening. I have been attacked as a woman, as a mother, as a Jew and as a writer. I’ve been called vulgar names, people have suggested that I will be travelling to hell as a result of my blog and that I am damaging my child.
Some days I write and think that no one will read it. I live a small life and that this goes out to all corners of the earth is pushed to the back of my mind because if I really thought about it I might be too scared to write it.
It has taken off and grown and the number of people who read it, sometimes overwhelms me. I am grateful and thankful to the readers out there and especially to those to take a moment out of their lives to write me their comments.
I would venture to say that 99.9% of the people who read my blog do not know me. So for those people let me tell you this: I am a really wonderful person. I got married at 25 and divorced at 30 with a 5-month-old son. I left a bad relationship and built a good life for my son and myself.
I have overcome many obstacles. Some I’ve discussed here, some I keep to myself and some I’m trying to decide if I want to share. I am on a spiritual path in terms of my religion and strive each and everyday to learn about my faith and live a Jewish life.
I am sarcastic and cynical. I have the mouth of a sailor and occasionally speak before I think. I try to be a good friend and am loyal to those I love. I always support the underdog and never pass a homeless person on the street asking for money without looking them in the eye, wishing them well, and giving them a dollar.
I am a great cook, a wonderful housekeeper and have the driving skills of a New York City cabbie. I am funny, smart and quick witted. I need to lose 30 pounds. By 30 of course I mean 20 and want my friends to say if I lose 30 I will be a rake and only need to lose 10 so then if I lose 20 I will feel good about myself. I am scared of the dark, have read Little Women over 50 times and really beautiful hair.
I’m just trying to live a good life and be a good mother and raise a divine little boy to be a respectful man who loves himself, his religion and his life. I do the very best that I can and it’s not always easy and certainly not always a success. I try to trust myself and when I stumble and fall I get up and try again. I am both a tough broad and an overly sensitive woman.
I truly appreciate that you are reading my blog. To those of you who felt it was okay to attack me and my character this week, who felt it was ok to call me a bad mother and suggest my child was in danger, to condemn me to hell for sharing MY opinion about MY life, please allow me to send a heartfelt Suck It!
I wish you all a wonderful weekend and a peaceful Shabbat and for those of you who are sad, in the dark, and alone, I have been there and until you are able to do it for yourself, it will be my honor, on all of your behalves, to keep the faith.