Last night I went to the airport to meet a friend. I got there a little early so I stopped to get some gas. As I was pumping my gas a car pulled up on the other side of the pump. A man dressed in his pilot uniform got out and I was frozen for a minute. He was beautiful. Not just his uniform, but as a human being, he was beautiful. He had dark brown hair, dark brown eyes, and one rather prominent dimple on his right side.
He smiled as he got out of the car and I panicked and went into the store to get a drink. When I came out he was finishing up and looked over at me again. I said to him, “You are really beautiful.” He laughed and responded with, “Well hello, and thank you.” I giggled, may have twisted a piece of hair, and got in my car. He was standing there looking at me, gave me a little wave, and off I went. It was great.
As I killed time waiting for my friend, I was playing around on Twitter. I saw a tweet from @GodPosts that read, “If you are brave enough to say goodbye, God will reward you with a new hello.” I read it over and over again. I then read a tweet from @MarilynMonroeDC that read, “The first to apologize is the bravest. The first to forgive is the strongest. The first to forget is the happiest.” I took these as a sign.
My Rabbi recently told me that God showers blessings on us everyday, and it is up to us to pay attention and catch the blessings. Sometimes our bucket is full, and other times we forget to pick up the bucket, and so blessings land around us and are not noticed. I have many blessings, but lately have forgotten about my bucket. Last night was a series of messages from God that I need to pay closer attention to my life.
This morning I spoke to the Englishman for the first time since we broke up, and it was wonderful. I love him. He is my best friend and I am not going to lose that friendship. He is a blessing in my life, and the life of my child, so while he is not my beshert, he is important, so I reached out. We had a lovely talk and everything is okay. I am going to find love again, as will he, and we will be happy for each other, as friends are.
Sunday is my birthday and I am going to mark the beginning of a new year with a new search. I am going to date, kiss a few frogs, get some priceless blogs, and meet a terrific man because I am a terrific woman. My friend Dannielle sent me a quote on Facebook that read, “Real men don’t date the most beautiful girl in the world, they date the girl who makes their world beautiful.” I cannot wait to meet that man.
And so the search begins. I’m single and dating, which sucks, but also has a silver lining. I have a wonderful son, a wonderful best friend, and a wonderful attitude. I am stronger, wiser, gentler, and kinder this time around. Life truly is a blessing and so I am going to put a smile on my face, be thankful for the lessons I have learned, polish up my bucket, start paying attention to the blessings around me, and keep the faith.
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