January 18, 2011 | 1:29 pm
Posted by Ilana Angel
Today is my son’s birthday. He is 15 years old. He is the most incredible human being I have ever known, and I love him more than I ever thought I could love anyone. Each and every day of my life is made better because of this boy. He fills my heart with an indescribable joy.
My son and I were chatting about how long I have loved him. He said since I have known him longer than anyone on the planet, I have loved him for longer than anyone else. I let him know that while I certainly have loved him from the second he was born, I have actually loved him for my entire life.
I always wanted to be a mommy. Through different experiences in my life, I never thought I would have a child. I truly thought it was something that would not be an option, so for me to have this child is a miracle. That I created this life is the greatest blessing of my life.
I have a really great kid. He is hilarious, charming, smart, handsome, caring, menschy and sensitive. He loves school, cooking, his friends, family, animals and the entertainment industry. He changed my life, and one day he will change the world because he cares about people, things, the environment and the future. He lives his life with purpose, looks forward to growing up, but loves being a kid.
I cannot wrap my head around the fact that he is now 15. He is so grown up and mature. He has an old soul and an inspiring world view. He teaches me something new everyday, and I am a better person because of him. Even if he were not my son, I would totally dig this kid.
To my son, I love you Snickerdoodle. You are a delicious child and being your mom makes me happier than anything else I have ever done, or will ever do in my lifetime. I believe in you, and know you will accomplish all your goals. I am on your side, your cheerleader, and greatest fan.
You were an easy baby. Always laughing and happy. You were never terrible at two, and a wonderful little boy. You were an incredible child, and a brilliant Bar Mitvah boy. You are my best friend, and watching you grow up is a blessing I am grateful for every single day.
I hope you have a great day. I am looking forward to our having dinner tonight to celebrate. This year you will finish your first year of high school and learn to drive. Lord give me strength. It does not matter how old you get, you will always be my baby and I will cherish that forever.
I know, you know, that I love you, but I wonder if you will ever truly know how much. You make every day of my life happy. Thank you for loving me, and for letting me hold on, even when you are ready for me to let go. You are easing me into your growing up and I appreciate it.
You make me think and make me laugh. Because of you, I believe a better world is possible. You tell me you love me, and let me know you are happy with the life we are living. You are grateful and share your gratitude which is amazing. I love you so much I can hardly stand it.
This blog is my love letter to you. You can go through them and see what I thought about things, especially you. You will learn about my world view and what my struggles and triumphs were. I hope when you read them they will allow you to understand me better and be proud of me.
I am proud of you beyond measure, and I cannot wait to see what you do with your life. You will be a success at whatever you do and I look forward to loving your kids and telling them all about what a great kid you were. You are my heart, and the main reason I keep the faith.
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