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Flipping Out

by Ilana Angel

October 7, 2009 | 1:14 pm

Is anyone watching Flipping Out on Bravo, Tuesday nights at 10 pm?  I have spent the morning trying to figure out how to write about this show and somehow tie it into my blog about being single and the only connection I could come up with is that Jeff Lewis is gay and I am in love with him which is my pattern and by pattern of course I mean I could be single because I love gay men.

I think Jeff Lewis is hilarious and I enjoy him.  I would like for the two of us to hang out and I think Jenny is divine and when she turns into Deb its television perfection.  It really is a well crafted sitcom that is disguised as a reality show and I could watch it all day.  It is cast perfectly and should get an Emmy for comedy writing.

It begs the question, am I so nervous about trusting a man and falling in love again that I hang out with gay men so my heart is somehow protected from getting broken?  Have I reached a point of such fear that I am purposely surrounding myself with men who are safe?  Could I be saying I put myself out there when really I am hiding? 

Nope.  Not me.  I am finally able to trust my ability to make good choices.  I am 43 and fabulous.  I have never looked or felt better.  I am comfortable with who I am as a human being and according to the text books and by text books of course I mean the ladies of The View, I am in my sexual prime.

So yes, I love Jeff Lewis.  That does not mean I am hiding from love but rather that I am capable of opening my heart.  Being single in your 40’s is really hard.  I am at a point in life where I can be free and uninhibited but at the same time I am a mother and balancing the two is more difficult than I ever imagined it would be.

I’m doing fine.  Life is great, my son is great, work is great and dating is, well,  it is what it is.  grin Keep the faith.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

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Ilana Angel writes two blogs for JewishJournal.com. KEEPING THE FAITH is about her worldview as a single Jewish mother, and KEEPING IT REAL is all about reality television....

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