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My Return Home

by Dr. Afshine Emrani

August 26, 2014 | 6:26 pm

My younger self awaits me...

1978-2014.

My younger self awaits me in that old home. He stares at the future that would be me; I ponder the past that was him. We connect on a bridge made of yearning and nostalgia. Hesitantly, we embrace.

We fall to our knees and sob. I ask if he ever told dad about how he bounced the ball that cracked the chandelier in our living room. He asks if I will ever stop doing and start being.

I say, “You should have told the satin-haired girl you loved her when you had your hand on her shoulder for the school play.” He says, “Work less, love more.”

I advise, “Be patient and familiar with discomfort and loneliness - in those moments you will burst into expressions that will be me.” He advises, “Don’t judge me so harshly.”

“Don’t let others discourage you from dreaming. Failure is a suitcase full of regrets…I should know.” He urges, “Your gray hairs, your wrinkles, and your scars are signs of battles won.”

I beg, “Never hold tightly to someone who wants to go; never anchor a ship that must sail.” He asks why I came back to visit?

I applaud him for not embarrassing the math teacher when she was unable to solve a problem to which he knew the answer. He insists, “Tell your patient her grim prognosis.”

I disagree. “You are too young to understand. There comes an age where hope feeds hunger more than food. You have much to learn.” He tells me I have much to unlearn.

I wonder if my younger self was wiser than the older me.

I wish to return into innocence, to be born into the freedom afforded only to children, to go back to Eden, and to throw the apple into the lake that echoes my love into eternity.

 

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Wishin you and yours a meaningful time for return and renewal.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

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Afshine Asher Emrani is a Persian Jew who loves God passionately, and as a result loves the path of healing, loves life, loves love and loves to share what he loves!  He is a...

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