Joanne Rocklin is obsessed with food. On her 60th birthday, she began summarizing her life with the essentials: "I love to cook. I love to eat."
But it's her passion for writing that has enabled her to come to terms with her life and her faith. The author of 20 children's books, including her renowned "Strudel Stories" (Delacorte, 1999), is about to complete a chapter in her own life that many young Jews today take for granted. Rocklin wraps up two years of studies with Temple Emanuel of Beverly Hills' adult b'nai mitzvah program when she ascends to the bimah for her bat mitzvah on June 24. As she delivers her d'var Torah, she will share with the congregation the ways her past life connects with the discoveries she's made about her Jewish self.
Although Rocklin is a clinical psychologist by training, her desire to write proved disruptive early in her professional life. The opposing tugs of two careers left her feeling unable to immerse herself fully in either profession. Factor in a divorce and the death of her mother, and it's easy to understand why Rocklin craved the serious life changes symbolized by her upcoming bat mitzvah.
"I look Jewish, I eat Jewish. I felt Jewish, but I didn't know anything about my background," Rocklin said.
Her search for a congregation led her to Temple Emanuel, where Rabbi Laura Geller encouraged Rocklin to learn the liturgy by singing in the choir of the New Emanuel Minyan. With husband Gerry Nelson, whom she'd met through a personal ad in The Jewish Journal, she also joined a couples havurah built around discussions over potluck meals. During one havurah get-together, Rocklin demonstrated her newly developing challah-baking prowess.
But even before she discovered Temple Emanuel, the kind of study that leads to career achievement was always central to Rocklin's life. As a young woman in Montreal, Rocklin studied to become an elementary school teacher. After moving to California in 1976 with her first husband and two sons, she studied for a doctorate in clinical psychology and soon established a practice focusing on the needs of children and families.
Yet a love for writing continued to gnaw at her. Before long, she was juggling family responsibilities, turning out children's books in the morning and seeing patients in the afternoon. When divorce left her a single parent who needed to earn a living, a high-octane lifestyle became all the more essential.
Soon after Rocklin and Nelson married, he persuaded her to ease back on her workaholic tendencies. So she followed her heart and became a full-time writer.
The inspiration for "Strudel Stories" struck one day while Rocklin was browsing through Joan Nathan's "Jewish Cooking in America." She spotted a reference to a Vermont woman who baked strudel with her children and grandchildren, sharing family stories while pounding and stretching the dough. The anecdote led Rocklin to invent a tale of three kitchens -- one in czarist Russia, one in Brooklyn after World War II and one in present-day Los Angeles -- in which strudel is made and stories are shared. Within this framework, Rocklin delicately introduced her young readers to Yiddish bubbemeises, Russian pogroms, the aftermath of the Holocaust and Jackie Robinson, as well as the joys of cooking with family.
Not long after the publication of "Strudel Stories," Rocklin's mother died. In her grief, she decided to make some changes. Rocklin told her husband it was time to move out of their condo and into a house. She also wanted a dog and a vegetable garden -- and she wanted to join a synagogue.
Her b'nai mitzvah classmates include 14 women in various stages of life, from a young newlywed to an 83-year-old grandmother. They've studied Torah trope with Cantor Yonah Kliger, pored over the words of the sacred text with assistant Cantor Judy Greenfeld and rabbinic intern Pearl Berzansky, and even gone for a ritual dip at the University of Judaism's mikvah to prepare for their upcoming rite of passage.
It's only recently -- since discovering the pleasures of Torah study for its own sake -- that Rocklin said her workaholic side has truly relaxed itself.
In contrast to her former self, Rocklin no longer feels that a garden is a waste of time unless it produces vegetables. Instead of pouring all her energies into her writing career, she's also embracing dawdling, taking tea with friends and playing with her cats. She's begun a regular monthly volunteer stint at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center along with her golden retriever, Zoe, fulfilling the mitzvah of bikkur cholim (visiting the sick).
Last November, all of Rocklin's new life lessons were put to the test when some suspicious spots were found on her lungs. There was a six-week period during which she made the rounds of labs and doctors' offices, trying not to be overwhelmed by her glimpse of "another world ... the world of the sick and dying," she said.
When her chances looked bleak, before thoracic surgery confirmed that her problems were minor, all she wanted to do was bake bread.
Rocklin said she finds paying attention to the details of a bread recipe just as challenging and as fulfilling as the study of Torah. Following a 30-page recipe by La Brea Bakery's Nancy Silverton, she has learned to savor each stage of the complex process that turns a homemade starter into a warm brown loaf. For Rocklin today, life is all about taking time to smell the challah.
Baking "slows you down," Rocklin said. "Bread is an amazing thing. It's just flour, water, and yeast ... and it becomes alive."