January 17, 2002
Bundles of Joy
The stork has been awfully busy lately.
It seems as though everyone I know is having a baby. A couple I haven't heard from in months sent a postcard with a picture of what I thought was a Sharpei puppy -- it turns out the little boy's name is Jesse. I didn't even know they were expecting.
Of course, in the bargain, I've lost all my friends. They're no fun any more. They're very busy doing not very much. They can't go anywhere, especially if they've got more than one child. When they do get out of the house it's all they can talk about and, honestly, there isn't that much to say about a little baby. You see these people with the 1,000-yard stare at Blockbuster, returning the overdue videos they haven't had time to watch, despite the fact they've been home every night for months.
I've been to visit a lot of these babies. I don't understand how The Gap can be in a sales slump with all the baby gifts I'm buying. If you're not one of the parents, there's not much for you to do. You look the kid over, rain praise on its incredible good looks, hold it long enough until it emits some vile fluid or hurts itself, and then you hand it back to its owner to mop up. It's like a slow, sloppy game of "hot potato."
A visit to a newborn should take an hour at most, by the end of which time you will have determined if the child looks more like the mother, the father, Winston Churchill or Lyndon Johnson. That important business concluded, you're free to leave these people behind and do whatever you want. Going to "see the baby" is a lot like going to see a convicted felon.
I have a single friend named Gina, who is determined to have a child in the next year. Gina has also decided that she doesn't need a man's help in getting the job done. Not much, anyway. She's come to the conclusion that, at age 35 with no "significant other" in her life, she'll get the baby thing out of her system so she can get on with her life. She doesn't want the pressure of having to rope some guy, get married and then hurry up to have a child. She reasons that men run from the scent of desperation, and maybe she's right. You might argue that two parents are better than one, but where's poppa when you need him? She's got a gay donor-daddy and an eminent fertility doctor -- and they'll do just as well in a pinch.
I've heard stories from the old days about young women getting pregnant and leaving town, going to stay with a relative until the baby was born. There was a time when being a single mother was a shonda. Not now. At some point, having the fellow around is basically a nuisance. Meanwhile, Gina's family has rallied around her with unbridled support, beaming grandparents-to-be waiting for the fatherless child.
So here's the rub: I want a child. My biological daddy clock is happily ticking away with no sign of wearing out. The warranty is still good for another several years, but suddenly the snooze alarm is broken. I'm not exactly hanging around schoolyards getting all misty, but the idea is getting more and more appealing to me. I'd prefer one that already walks and talks, but I understand they don't come that way direct from the factory.
Now I want diapers and runny noses and little, bitty clothes and brightly colored toys and big books by Dr. Seuss and one of those walker things in the kitchen. I want to get woken up at ungodly hours and struggle with a baby seat, and I want to call a pediatrician "just to be safe." I also want my friends back. None of their behavior will seem nearly as odd when I'm in the same boat with them.
Incredibly, it seems, I'm going to have to get a woman involved somewhere in the process. I feel like Frank Sinatra in my best pressed tweeds: All I really need is the girl.
J.D. Smith is expecting @ www.lifesentence.net.